Ted Haggard: I'd still rather be the way I am now—broke, a man of disrepute—than have "that HORRIFIC INTERNAL STRUGGLE"

Transcribed by Jeff Fenske from The Trials of Ted Haggard, HBO 2009

“I’d still rather be the way I am now, though,
and broke,
and a man of disrepute,

than the way I was,
and have that horrific internal struggle
that I had.”

– Ted Haggard

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